Hate November 21st. Forever.

Currently at DU right now because their practicing. with the loves of my life! Prophecy > Everyone else. basically.
Well walking, is okay. but not being able to Dance on stage is STILL killing me.
Life is confusing as HELL right now. I HATE BOYS btw. :( UGH, yes i said it.
And Dancing sounds sooo good right now to dance my anger/emoness away.
I cant WAIT to get back on the floor.
Their doing a competition this saturday, and it's a big one again.
and I CANT do it.
Found out JayChris is coming down :(
whatevs ...

June 2nd, you need to come fast, please please please. with cherries on top? :( Daaaaamn.
Well Beau is teaching right now. I really wished i Did his dance, but they look so good! ugh! so im very proud.


Song repeat is:
Thinking of you & I wished you loved me. FML.
the end.


Hiiii Meow, I know your reading this right now too! so Shoutout to you ALL the time! <3

anyways,
HATE 112108.
I wished it never happened. but everything happens for a damn reason. =\ FML.


Thanks for reading my short blog.
need to let it out


spring break is over. FMLLLLLLLLL.
I hate school.



bye. <3

Physical Therapy, Walking with Both shoes + DRIVING!

Whoa whoa whoa, So obviously i haven't wrote in this in like, FOREVER ! But this week in general was crazy.

So Physical therapy, man, i was pretty nervous when i first got in there. But everyone was so nice and basically everyone that was there was older than me. hahah, alot older! So i guess the people were looking at me, like what is she doing here? but What i had to do was put my foot in this SUPERDUPER COLD bucket for a min and then put it in the pool for 2 min. ITS TORTURE! no lie. When i was sitting there, i was thinking about the people from titanic, ommmmg. i give all those people props. cus my water was DEATH cold! i couldnt even stay there for 15 seconds. hahah. But yeah, PT has been helping ALOT! its pretty crackin.

Walking with BOTH shoes on is pretty crackin! i MISS IT! you have no idea! :) but i do miss the boot, cus it did help me ALOTALOTALOT. but hey, gotta get back to normal sooner or later! i love how i went to practice and everyone was shocked cus i didnt tell anyone, i LOVE YOU PROPHECY with all my heart <3 I cant wait to dance again!

DRIVING, what!? i know!!!!!!!! :) i drove around for the FIRST time yesterday with MY thursday crew! (rj and dann) and im surprised they werent trippen, but they were helping me drive tho! <3 thanks boys! totally love you!

mmmmm. what else was exciting this week.
Monday, lazy day.
tuesday, walking day
wednesday, both shoes day

oh! wednesday was patrick's birthday, so we went to cheesecake factory in WALNUT CREEK! omgomgomgomg, hella nice! im SO going their for my birthday! its hella big and its RIGHT next door from Urban :) yummm. hahahah first time IN THE LONGEST I seen chris superduper drunk. hahaha, poor thing, KO'd on the ride back home while me and craig was just chooopin' it up!


thursday; stayed at home, shoulda done homework, oh well! hahah
friday; just had PT and now i gotta go to the Dentist, booooo! hate the dentist.
Oh well.


tomorrow will be exciting :) Out with Prophecy and then Go to patrick's party, again.
Yaaaay. okay well im donezo for now!




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Let's Keep it Real.

Gigi: "Because of the signs.."
Alex: "Really like what?!"
Gigi: "Like it was good to hear from me and you even talk to me when you were with a girl and ... I felt something."
Alex: "What have I been saying since i met you, if a guy wants to date you, he will make it happen!, he will ask you out! why do every girl build this in their mind, they take each little thing a guy does and twist it into something else"

FUCK THE SIGNS.


LADIES, get that right!
youre either the rule or the exception.



watch that damn movie.
movie6.net

He's Just Not that Into You.

I AM in LOVE with this movie, no lie. I cry the first 15 minutes. -___-
It is 5:05 am =X hahaha but i just need to write.

EVERYBODY SHOULD WATCH THIS MOVIE, Girls, so you know wsup & Guys, so you know that girls know what your trying to do. bitches.

UGH. I hate but LOVE this movie. Again, I related to ALL the girls. But the main points I will write later. but DAMN.

no lie, EVERYONE needs to watch this. NO LIE, ugh. i Wish they can MAKE you watch a movie. -____- love it. i'll write more later.

Live Life Now Or Never.

Hmmm, i LOVE wednesday, only have one class, and leave school at 1130. :) NO one on bart either, its heaven sitting anywhere and just looking out the window w/ the ipod on. It's sunny today, so that felt nice. relaxed going back home.

So I always tend to think ALOT when i'm on Bart about EVERYTHING and everyone basically. I mean, its alot of thinking since I have to wait 30 minutes to get back home! haha. but the main thought today was, NOW OR NEVER.

Me & a friend was talking about being scared in a relationship she's currently in right. She was telling me about this song she heard on his myspace and i guess it scared her & she didn't know what to do, Cus i guess she was scared of being disappointed again, IDK i didn't really understand her. But they've been talking for a while now. & I think about it, it's like why are you scared, you know what he's willing to do for you? what if he told you that he loved you in a couple months, what are you gonna do? walk away because your scared? it's like, IF YOURE NOT READY, THEN STOP TALKING TO THAT PERSON. Cus i know how it feels to wait for hella long for that person and having weeks and months go by, and nothing is happening. I say friend, Live life Now or Never. This accident made me realize, LIVE LIFE to the Fullest. Just like the Song MAD, From Neyo

Girl, i dont want to go to bed mad at you
And i dont want you to go to bed mad at me.

You never know what the next day is holding for you.

Now for ANY guy reading this. Some of you are the types who are the player type or the quiet type. Quiet guys meaning Not saying anything first or just quiet in general, what if you had a crush on this girl for the longest and you been waiting to tell her how you feel, but the next day you find out she's in the hospital, wouldn't you WISH that you have told her how you felt. i mean, STOP being scary little bitches. because you never know what the next day is gonna hold for you. If she rejects you, then OH WELL, MOVE ON now you know you weren't wasting your time.

Ladies, all I have to say is. watch HE'S NOT THAT INTO YOU. i feel like ALL ladies in the WORLD should watch that movie, it's Legit. and sadly, I relate to all their stories -_____-. But no lie, watch it, and if guys watch it too Then GOOD, FINALLY so you know how girls actually feel.

& even with out relationships, if you want to steal something, do it! (jk, dont do it) but if you get an opportunity, take it! cus when is the next time would you get that offer, yanno. its Now or Never. but Now or Never can go with anything, all you gotta do is think about it, and youre good!


Live Life Now or Never.
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RoboCop Status

Dear Bloggerettes.

So. I haven't been really writing, midterms is coming up, and then SPRING BREAK! hella early right? lol well anyways.. i havent really need to write anything, but I've been walking... ALOT. and its been hurting, and now its like SUPER swollen near my ankle. i think im flat footed now. :( and i STILL cant wear my vans. Boooo.

PT. hasnt even started yet, i gotta call them tomorrow about my appointment, cus i already wanna walk WITH BOTH my shoes. please haha, but i've been getting alot of comments with my new robocop boot.

ill show you the before and after picture. trust, its like, DAMN good thing she pimped it out, cus it was NO BUENO! hahaha
but today, was the first time i walked around the house withOUT my boot. so it felt so weird, like i can change without hurting yanno. oh well, baby steps. at least i can walk to the bathroom and stuff =)

i gotta put some icycold thangy on it later. so it can be warm and the screws wont tense up, cus thats what its been doing because of the damn cold.

I HATE DAYLIGHT SAVINGS TOO btw. haha

well here.

merc was wearin the boot cus she wanted too?




& this is what it looks after, you cant see it but theres a NIKE sign :)



so thats it, until then,

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Clear sky.

What a day, and it hasn't even begun! well . kinda. hahah

went to sac with my sisterfab. and she had class. so i was chillen at Sac State for a good minute. Chillen with Mr. Patrick (thanks for skipping class to keeping me company =) ) haha but we talked to arweezy today on videochat, he's in florida right now. but i missed him! hahaha. but anyways, then we went to the mall. to pick up my NINER Jacket! it looks big, but its coo! i love it! <3

now i'm just chillen at sac again, ALONE. haha while jaz takes her exam, boo.

well. gonna have dinner with christopher later. so that should be fun! :)

love the sun today, soo pretty in sac to get away from the bay feels good. <3

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Timing is everything...

FUCK THAT! I hate how this process is so FUCKING SLOW! i'm sorry, i'm mad. but let me tell you about my day first :)

Walked around SF for the first time, NO one on bart, slept thru the whole thing. yadiyadi. jaz got me in her cute rental car!

oh, we hella painted my jedi boot. its not even a robocop starwars boot, its more, artsy nike now :) haahah you just have to see it. well I was at dance, and i learned busta rhymes, and i was hella juiced. BUT i kept all my weight on my left leg. but thanks kenny & arielle. :) i was waiting to learn that dance.

But basically, SUPER depressed. because I got invited to do HipHop International in Vegas. and can i do it?! MAYBE. because i can start dancing june and its in july. I BETTER DO IT. i'm so mad that i'm like this. I HATE HATE HATE HATE this accident. =\ whatevs. cant do anything now!

But I LOVE YOU ANTHONY, but, if he does it, then i'm forsure cant do hiphop international =\ but i mean, it IS my fault that this stupid accident happen, so anthony deserves it. So We shall see how things go.

Life sucks, until i can start dancing again.

Totally can walk around without the crutches, but im not suppose too -_____- GAY. PT needs to start and end already. shit.

bye.

Its not what I wanted to hear...

What a day ..

So i woke up, got ready. Headed to sac, my heart was pounding! I didnt know what to expect, what to hear. all i wanted to hear was just good news. "Jemma Alegre" they called my name, I was going to the door, and they told me, "you know where to go" so While i wait in the Xray room FOREVER they told me to stay so they could see the xrays and they would let me go, so they did. and then we headed to the Station 3, same room I always go to when i have an appointment. So while I wait, my dad jokes around saying "what if they told you, you have another week" I would of cried.

SO they came in, they told me my collarbone is COMPLETELY healed. :) and that my ankle was pretty good, and that i can walk on it. BUT, i still had to be on crutches for 2 weeks during physical theorpy, it said its gonna take time cus i wont be used to it. So it was fine. Then my doctor told me, I cant dance until I see him again, and i asked him when was that and he told me... 3 months. i think my heart broke even more. Because I just wanted to dance again. and during that 3 months will be ABDC Season 4 auditions. So i dont know what to do =\ but at least Collabo is in July.

June 2nd, 2009 is my last appointment. But I dont mind, because i really need to concentrate on this sem because of last semester.

But after that, I got a new boot. HATE IT, i swear, it looks like star wars shit. HATE IT. but it gets me around. they told me i would use both my crutches to ONE crutch then my boot will come off. but shit, i didnt need both my crutches, i could already walk with one. and I COULD WALK AROUND WITH THE BOOT too, its just hella heavy. that i do have to use my crutch sometimes. So for now, i'm HALF a robo starwars girl. hahah


Then my dad said, lets go to the mall! so you can practice. did. :) HE GOT ME A NINER JACKET. super juiced. and some clothes. and then that was it. but basically, i can walk. with regular shoes in 2 weeks. but i dont care. I just want PT to hurry up!
well thats all for now. :)

MY DAY IS TODAY. But for now. its just. walking with the ugly boot. lol.

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EMOtional.

Wooow, So have you heard just a sentence or a word and made you think about everything?
I told my dad what happened at BART. And he told me...

"rmember... be carefull. walk slowly ,don't matter if you are going to be late.. remember 1 more day.... "

when he said one more day. it just HIT me, I didnt realize, how LONG i've been waiting for this day. Tomorrow is gonna be the day they can tell me I can walk, and that day will just make my LIFE more easier. I want this day to go by so quick, you have no idea. Yes, I cried when i was talking to my dad, good thing no one is in the lab, it's because it's been a very very rough time for all of us.

I thought about all the shots, the times when i was super emo, the tears, the times where All i could do was just lay down. Everything is gonna end, and that day is gonna be tomorrow.

Those tears that I shed today was not because of sadness, but of happiness.
I think thats the first time, I EVER cried for happinesss, i wonder how tomorrow is gonna be.


97 days so far. 98 tomorrow...

Best week ever? ....

Good Morning everyone... scratch that. MORNING. Not a good morning. -___-, get into more details with that later. anyways ...

Yesterday, thanks to my other mrs. nick j, she told me that the boys were going to be in town for the special visit for the invasion tour at the mall. and i was hella trying to get out there until jeanie wanted to go too. So we get there, find out that hella girls found out from websites too. but its coo, they were there. forreal only saw them for 5 seconds. hahah no lie, they were talking for a good minute. and said thank yous, and left. -____- i was like woow really. whatevs, i mean, we always said that if we just SEE them then thats good. so its was okay i guess...

Then this morning, i woke up early cus i knew my dad wanted to leave early because i asked him to go to SF today because i knew it was raining. So he's going too... and then, when im going to bart. IDK HOW. But i SLIPPED AND HELLA FELL on my back! i was SOOOO embrassed. No one helped, typical. But i was like FUCK these crutches, one more fucking day. but my back hurts still and my collarbone is acting up now. =\whatevs.... have you ever seen prophecys ending from Prelude or any of our shows, we do the "SHABLAM" hit the floor, i think i have a picture.



like that.... When i was on the floor, i was like WTH? how did i get down here. whatevs. But
ONE MORE DAY. it needs to come. =( quick.

collarbone is hurting, im done for now. gotta do homework now.
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2 more days!

I LOVE the weather today! :)

"I love this weather, its something where you stay home and cuddle" -Mother

hahaha when she said that, i was like, so true, so true. =)

But yeah, anyways. 2 more effing days =)

Let me tell you about last night. Chad got me around 4ish, didn't leave the house around 630ish, thought we would be late to richards basketball game, turns out they were still playin in the first half! haha, so we got there, they lost =( and while we were going to our next destination, this guy was walking out with us and was like, "what happened with you" and i told him that i was in a car accident, and he said "mann, those bad drivers out there!" and everyone started HELLA laughing and i was just looking down. hahaha, and i was like no, its just me... and he was like, OH so YOURE the bad driver! hahaha, and i was like. =( yeahh... i guess. and i forgot who said it but they were like, its the sun fault. hahah! i was like boo =( whatevs. hahah.

But i didn't mind. Today was the last sunday ill be sitting in the annex ! =) Mann, i HATE sitting there because i feel like i'm not really in church! yanno. but, man, walking, too excited. i REALLY cant wait! =) 2 more days, tomorrow needs to end quick from school. sjdhfjksdhfasdhf.

OH! and my MOFO BEST FRIEND is coming with me to the hospital!!!! =D too excited. ksdfkjasdbfnaf, anyways. we're talking about going to disneyland next month! :) yayayayayayayy. i love my family! yayy!

well, i have really nothing else to say. but, 2 more days! ill write more tomorrow at school! see ya!

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