One week + One Day.

Good Morning All You Readers. I HATE being at school 4 hours before Class starts, I swear I really can't wait to start driving again, So I can just get to school an hour before school starts instead of 4! Ugh. =( Well anyways. Today is One Week + One day til I can start officially start walking, that is 8 DAYS! super juiced. No more hopping around the house, asking people for rides, Piggy back rides, Using my arms to walk around the city, Crawling around the house just to bring my laptop in the living room. I really think alot of STRESS would come off my shoulder when I do start walking.

Have you ever had a dream about EVERYTHING in the past?

I did. Last night. I had a dream about me walking again (Btw, HATE those dreams, especially back then. I would always have dreams about walking, but i'll get into that more later on in the blog), about the accident, about dancing, all past Boys, friends and Good memories. All in one night. I dont know what happened But everything is just coming back.

Everytime my dad brings me to Bart in the morning. I always have my What IFs, or What I could of done in the past. But I still have to find my reason WHY this is happening to me, I have a guess, but again, there is alot more out there for me.

My parents were talking about my sister car. Her car is completely dead now, and my dad was telling us that he has to give up that car because it is donzo. but now he has to get my sister a new car plus me. Money money, what it can do to you. It can please you and it can kill you. But i really dont mind that my sister gets her car before me, because she travels more than I do at least. I mean, even though I gave up my cotillion just to get a Brand New car which I never got, i mean, this accident was ON ME. and I do have to tell myself that it IS my fault and everything that is happening right now was because of me and no one else. oh well, 8 more days. This week just needs to go by quick again, which im pretty sure it will. After tomorrow. It should be good.

So my walking dreams. Yes, i always have walking dreams, especially ALOT back then. I honestly would cry whenever I wake up because I can't do nothing about it! Its mostly about me walking, and realizing Im not suppose to be walking but I still do? When I had my cast on, i had Dreams that I would walk WITH My cast on, now its just walking regular. Last night was about me, going to this other hospital. And this girl had her shoes on but she had something wrapped on her ankle. And she was telling me, "its your turn next" and I was just thinking how does her foot not look huge when she puts shoes on! ( because on saturday, I tried on my blazers on my right foot, NOT CRACKIN )

Shoes. I usually try on different shoes on my right foot because I wanna see if I can wear them still! VANS, CHUCKS, some of my DUNKS & Jordans are TOTAL FAILED =( i would really have to wait until the swelling goes down, cus it is STILL swollen. but not as much as before. Its more, dark, flat, fat, foot. haha does that make sense? oh well. slippers & boots is what i can wear for now. but its coo! i dont mind! hahaha

Well I think thats it for now... Until then =) seee ya!