Reminiscing ..

Im in class right now, Its pretty cool in this class, But again, There hasn't been a day when i'm not thinking about the accident. I always think about what could of happened, all the What-IF's. A couple days ago, i was watching 60 minutes with my parents about the Flight that crashed in the Hudson River. And he was explaining how the first couple days were hard to sleep, and then it came to the What IF's and what could he have changed. When I heard that, i started crying because I can SO relate to that. & I was eating too! so it was all bad. haha

Then i was talking to my friend, Cjay, and she asking me what happened. And everything came back to me like it was just yesterday. Swear, like, It doesn't feel like months that it happened. it feels like It happened last week. 98 days, you guys wonder what it means right? *98 days states how long i've been going thru this experience. There's probably gonna be more days, but its 98 days i couldn't walk.

Not dancing is really killing me right now. But i know it's 3 more weeks, and im still excited cus i know its gonna go by QUICK! or at least I hope it will! =)

But I feel like it's time to tell you all the real story. or everything that I could remember & this is the first time i'm talking about this, so. here it goes.

I was going home from work, and Yes, the sun was really bright, but I was really tired... Thee last time I texted was Lani, so the people who thought i was texting, I wasnt. and So. I was going home, trying not to fall asleep, I turned on my AC, but after that all i can remember, I heard the rocks, and i was already in the center divider. and then i saw the construction truck not to far away. All i kept saying was Omg. Omg. My brakes weren't working because of the rocks. So right after I hit, I felt and smell the airbags, Omg it was the worse. Like i got slapped in my face but all i was like Fuck my parents are gonna kill me. And I didnt think i was hurt, So i took off my seat belt, and i got out of the car. Thats when I look down, and I saw my ankle out, and then i stood up and thats when I felt my collarbone hurt, I fell in the ditch and my Jordans got muddy =\ pooo. but i kept trying to look for my phone to call my sister. and My parents we're in LA so they were so far away. But i couldnt find my phone, Everyone on the freeway just kept looking at me, I was calling out for help, but no one came, and then finally a guy asked if I was okay and All i told him was to call 911. And then this couple pulls over and told me they saw the accident, and he asked me if could get around but i told him my ankle broke, and then he carried me off the side. and he grabbed my blankets that were in my car. The lady told me to take off my shoe because my foot was swelling. All i kept saying to the guy was, Can you call my sister, And thats when the ambulance came. I was scared, but I had to be calm. There was about 8 guys helping me, and they were all newbies going to a convention So i was lucky. and right when they were strapping me in, I saw a really good friend of mine, and he told me my sister called him and I just remember crying to him while i was on the strap board. Then they took me off the Fairfield.

The ambulance boys were soooo nice, I just saw them recently too. But anyways, they took me to the Fairfield hospital, and all my family were their waiting for me, the first people i saw were my brother and sister outside the door. And i was just holding my sisters hand and she was like it's gonna be okay (omg, im like hella crying in class right now) So they brought me the ER. and i was there for awhile. I saw my cousins one by one. but then, i was in pain, and i was cold. And thats when they told me I had to be transfer to UC Davis because my surgery was to complicated, Thats when I talk to my parents on the phone, and I dont think i'll ever forget the phone call from my mom. I swear she sounded like someone died plus worried times a billion. (My dad told me he got pulled over because he was speeding, but the police let them go) So while they were bringing me to Sac, my sister was hella choppin it up with the Ricky, one of the ambulance guys -____-, that little hoe. hahaha jk jaz. And then i was in the ER for so long, i was in the hallway, and I saw at least 2 people die. it was crazy, I coudlnt really sleep either, so much commotion, Then I saw ryan, and he was helping me cus i kept throwing up, and i remember him wiping my sweat and when I was doing my x'rays its was crazzy. Thanks again ry. Then I finally see my dad, his eyes were so red. I dont know if he was just tired from driving all day or crying? or maybe both. And then i saw my mom. and thats when the crying started happening I just felt so bad, i cant image what they had to go thru. knowing their child was just in a car accident in the hospital! yanno. my parents are strong for that one <3. But this white duude kept looking at us and i was like BOO, WTF. LOOK AT SOMEONE ELSE. But after a couple of hours or waiting, I finally get a room, and then I try to go to sleep, but i couldnt. The bed was more comfortable tho! hahah and then i remember waking up at 5am. telling me their gonna put me to sleep because they had to shift my foot back. They put the mask on and i was hella shaking. But after that, i dont remember anything of course. But I remember was my pillow was on the floor, and my nurse said I kept moving cus I guess my body was trying to fight with them?! hahaha WEIRD. But when i woke up, i had the mask on, and the things they put thru your nose IT WAS SOO COOOL! hahaha. but then, i couldnt find my family because i thought my dad was gonna be in there, but they kicked him out and i Woke up with a cast on. and it was pretty heavy but hella warm! My uncle and Auntie came in, and they started crying, and i NEVER seen my uncle cry. So that was a first.

Then the days go by, and im finally in a room room. My uncle hooks it up and gives me, my own room =) and then people came to visit. my bestfriends were there. Best feeling ever, Jeanie & Chris, i love you guys to DEATH! ugh. So the next day goes by, i get hella comments, messages, IMs, texts asking if I was okay. And I find out Desi told everyone cus he saw me on the scene and Dom came down from hayward to sac and Jeanie came from san pablo. Then more visitors. The surgery day came. Went to sleep at 9, didnt wake up til 5 for a good 5 minutes and then woke up again the next day around 5. But man, all i had to eat was CLEAR food. and it was so nasty, thats how I lost weight. But yeahhh, thats all I can remember. Theres more but not really important.

The Main people i wanna thank tho is. My family, Jeanie, Dom, Tina, Arielle, Marc, Patty. Thank you for being there from the beginning. I LOVE YOU GUYS =) and thats it for now.