Sorry Jaz ....

Another post...

From my sisster.

"It's been a crazy/depressing/relieving/happy weekend.

My sister got into a car accident last friday on the way home from work driving down West 80. She got blindsighted by the sun and ended up driving through the center divider and crashed into a construction steamer.

I'll never forget that moment when I got the phone call. A (916) is calling my cell and I usually don't pick up random numbers like that.. but on that day I did. Thank God I did. A man was on the other end asking "are you the sister of...??" I hear all this commotion in the background and then.. I hear her crying. My heart starts pounding and all these thoughts rush to my head. (OMG. please don't tell me he's holding her for ransom!? what the hell is Jemma doing in Sac?) My sister gets on the phone and is able to tell me she got into a car accident. I jump out of my chair and grab my shit as fast as I can to get out of my house.

Driving to fairfield, swear, I felt like I was starring in a Fast and the Furious movie. Speeding my life away and merging different lanes just to get to her. (i know, not smart... but i had to be with her) When I get closer to the scene, the 916 man tells me that the cops don't want me to pull over because there's too much traffic and that i should just meet them at the Northbay Medical Center by the mall. As I drive passed the scene, I see her car... my heart sinks. For that moment, I realized... I could have lost my best friend.

You see, my sister and I have a very special relationship. Growing up.. we were definitely enemies that was forced to be together. I remember I hated when my parents would force me to bring her along to Marine World with my friends. haha I had to bring her everywhere with me and I'm sure she hated it as much as me cuz I would be so mean to her. Currently, I would love to spend as much time with her as possible. Over the years, she became my best friend, but still enemy from time to time :)

After going through this whole experience, I've learned to never take the moments with my sister for granted. All the "sleepovers" we have in eachother's room, all the crazy dance moves that we do together, all the movie quotes that we always say, all the fine ass boy talks... damn, i'm lucky. We promised eachother to never say "FML, I hate my life, Kill me now" anymore and maybe you should too?

You never know when your life can be taken away or those that you love can be gone. I say, LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST. Take all the risks you can. Allow yourself to feel love and pain. Say what you mean to say. Fulfill your dreams to max. Let go of the things that are unnecessary.

Allow your life to mean something to yourself and to those around.

Jemma, I love you. I wish you would clean your room more often, so my belongings wouldn't go missing... but I'd rather fight with you about it than to not be able to talk to you ever again. Let's keep adding to our list of movies that we have to watch together, yea? cuz you're the "Romy to my Michelle cuz we are WHITE CHICKS that love to be SUPERSTARs that use too much GREASE. One day we might even become PHANTOMs of the OPERA and stalk an ugly girl named PENELOPE" :) Girl, you know i got yo back no matter what. Remember I was gonna cash out my checkin account to bring you to Utah for you HSM3 audition when ma&dad wasn't having it? Remember I made a fuckin ruckus at the Summer Heat show cuz someone took your cellphone & camera? Now don't forget... that I wouldn't leave your side until ma & dad came to the hospital... Ill always be your ride or die chick.

& I'm sure there will be times in the future where we still wanna rip eachother's heads off.. but deep down.. I got madd love for you. FOREVER & ALWAYS. You deserve nothing but the best. so, all the boys BETTER be scared. Jemma not only has an older brother, but OVERPROTECTIVE SISTER. if it's anybody thats gotta approve of you, IT'S ME BITCH. kay, now impress me.

Here's to you & me bitch. LOVE YOU HOE!!!!"